Friday, March 13, 2009

CD5

Trina started spotting on Sun and had the temp drop to match on Mon. I was SO sure about this one. Vaguely pregnant symptoms, a beautiful chart, sperm cupcakes... How did it all go so wrong? I was an absolute wreck on Sun. I couldn't help but feel sorry for myself and tortured myself with thoughts about how this time last year, she was pregnant. The only thing that saved me from myself was our good friends inviting us to lunch when Trina got off work. I was terrible company, but they pretended not to notice. My dad ended up meeting us for lunch, too and we all went to shoot pool after. I'm not sure how any of them could stand to be around me I was in such a foul mood. I guess that's what friends and family are for. To suffer with you through your worst times and try to distract you from the pain.

Anyway, we've added some superfood supplements to her diet this go-round. On top of her prenatal vitamins, DHA supplement and Cl0mid, she's now taking Maca root capsules, Spirulina capsules and a Bee Pollen, Bee Propolis and Royal Jelly mix capsule everyday. Today she had her first "solo" check up at our OB. I hated missing it. I want to be there every step of the way whether we're pregnant or not. 9 or 10 days from now we'll do 2 more at-home insems. We've got 2 more cycles til our OB wants to start looking in why this isn't happening for us. Fingers crossed that we won't have to have that conversation...

6 comments:

Craving of Motherhood said...

Sorry for you both. Hang in there.

home.grown.love said...

oh love, I'm so sorry. keep your chin up. keep us posted on your journey so we can wish the luck harder.

The Clangleys said...

We added raspberry tea with mint this cycle and baby aspirin. Crossing our fingers for you for next cycle!

Two Moms With A Plan said...

It looks like we are in the same miserable boat. Sunday was horrible for me as well. I kept thinking over and over again why it didn't work. This is just so hard to deal with at times. I hope one day we can both look back on this moment with our babies in our arms and laugh about it. Good luck on your next cycle!

nutella said...

So very sorry that this wasn't it for you both.

DNTWANAGROWUP said...

so, sorry