Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Another One Bites The Dust

Trina's temp dropped dramatically 5 days ago. I've been hoping against hope that it was an implantation dip or a fluke or ANYTHING other than another failed cycle. Well, 5 days of low temps (just a hair above the coverline), 3 neg HPT's and some cramps later I've officially given up hope. I haven't been sleeping well for days and when I do, my dreams are filled with babies and pregnancies. I wake up tired and mourning the loss of my "dream life" all day. 

This cycle seems to be hitting us both pretty hard. My poor wife is beginning to doubt herself and even worse, consider herself a failure. We've both cried rivers and she hasn't even started bleeding yet. Hopefully we can snap out of it by the time try #6 gets here. To aid me in this, I took a "mental health day" today which gives me 3 days off in a row. I'm cleaning my house today and we're meeting up with some friends tonight. There's also lawn work to be done and various house projects that have been neglected. I'm hoping that setting and reaching smaller goals for a few days will help me get my head straight so I can face work and the general population by the start of my shift on Fri. Wish me luck...

7 comments:

J said...

Sending you lots of love.

Two Moms With A Plan said...

I'm so sorry to hear this cycle didn't work. It can be so stressful when ttc. Don't lose hope, your dreams will come true.

The Clangleys - our Timeline said...

We are all thinking about you! Don't lose hope. Your time is coming!

... Ally and Sarah... said...

hey it will happen! We almost gave up, actually we did, it was going to be our last try for this year, and it happened. Just dont give up :)

Jen said...

I agree. Don't give up hope. We are all in this crazy rollercoaster together! A mental health day sounds like a perfect bandaide, been there done that!

Melissa "Baby House" said...

I've only been through 2 attempts, but the last few days of each 2 week wait are definitely the hardest and most demoralizing. Strangely, though, when my period shows, I get excited because it means that I get to try again. I know it's hard...even though I haven't been at it as long as you guys, but it does take the average heterosexual couple (with no fertility issues) 6-12 tries, so you are still very much in the game. Of course, that statistic doesn't seem to apply to the lucky you-know-what's that go out and get laid on a one night stand and get knocked up. Grr. But, anyways, try to stay positive! Good luck!!!

Carrie said...

Im so sorry to hear about the BFN. :( i wouldnt give up hope yet- which i know is easy to say, right? they do say it takes an average of 8x to get pregnant with frozen sperm and iui. well here i am on iui#9, and it still hasnt happened. are you guys doing femara or clomid? might be worth it. or injectables. unmedicated iuis carry a 3% chance, but with injectables it gets up to 20%+. might be worth it? i just want to see you gals preggers! :)